I know. It’s been a while. There’s also been just a lot of empty promises and radio silence. The only thing I can say to explain it all is that the vicious yearly cycle that I seem to always put myself in, ended up happening again. I start something new, dive in head first and then after some time I realize that it may not be for me. This time though, instead of having the rug pulled from my feet, I find myself in a position that is nothing what I initially signed up for. In a nutshell, I’m unhappy with where I’m at in my life. Again. I suppose that’s ok since life really should be about constant failure until you get where you’re trying to go. So I’m not completely discouraged. I’m just in a rock and a hard spot. For the first time in my life, I actually hate my job and hate going to work. Consequently I hate this feeling towards my job. My life is pretty shitty as it is so trying to find some joy and happiness in one aspect of my life, in this instance my work life, is pivotal for having somewhat of a stable existence. If my work life is something that not only I dislike but something that I abhor and try to avoid, then I’m just constantly running away from something 24/7. My personal life is bleek at best, mostly at a fault of my own, but what’s an introvert to do in a city with limited friends.
Anyway, I just needed to rant a little bit. Thanks for tuning in, I’m hoping for some radical changes in the future that will free up more of my time.. but im not making any promises this time 😉